Trying to move my plot forward.

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Writing anything lately has been a serious struggle. I barely leave the house. I don’t want to join in group activities at all. I also don’t want to write, or blog, or do anything.

For the past few months, most things I’ve set to do flopped, or things turned worse. It got to the point I don’t even want to try for fear of making things worse for me. But not doing anything also leaves me with nothing.

I wish there was a pill you take and WHAMMO- no more despair threatening to swallow you whole. But no, anti-depressants take weeks to take effect. Side effects might include weight gain. Frankly, I never felt happy on them anyway. They didn’t seem to help at all.

So I’m left with trying to figure out a resolution to my conflict. No easy task. Unlike a character in a book, I don’t have a guide or the character that helps the protagonist along. I also have the realization that there’s no deux ex machinima to pull me out of the fire should I make mistakes.

<sighs> Why can’t life be more like a video game where your actions at least provide experience points that leads to buff ups?

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7 responses to “Trying to move my plot forward.

  1. I can relate to what you say here Sharon. I have the desire BUT in recent years, my main distractions have been chronic pain (getting better, but not gone), and landlord issues (just moved). Now that these issues have lessened I must make time for physical therapy and general health issues. I also work 4 days a week. First health, then writing. Oh, and did I mention I no longer have cable. That should definitely help, eh?

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    • Chronic pain sucks. I’ve encountered that, as well as illness and eyes going bad (need new glasses), so reading becomes stressful. Hopefully things will look up for you (and me) and we’ll become prolific writers.
      😉

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  2. Christine

    I appreciate the fact you shared this, because I often feel the same way.

    Let’s hope for better days.

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    • Thinks haven’t really improved but I don’t have the soul-crushing depression like I used to. At least I can get out of bed. I think its important to try to find ways to keep moving forward,especially the mind. It helps….some. Hope you feel brighter and better in the coming days. 😉

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